Small but mine. That’s how my boobies look after one year of hormones.
I’m not sure if it’s common that they are still that small after one year, but the girls in my family with a similar body as my one have all small breasts. Soo.. I guess they are fine.
March.. will be a busy month
I’ve got two appointments in march already.
One is the epilation and the other one is the appointment for the psychological report for bottom surgery.
So well, I finally have to decide where to do surgery after the report is done.
I’m still not sure if I should go to Munich or Hamburg.
I’ve got some mails from friends in the last days and also wrote some to the surgeon in Hamburg to figure out what’s going on there with the complications and stuff.
I don’t know yet if everything was just shitstorm or whatever, but the waves calmed down a little and the patients with the troubles I’ve talked about in another post a few months ago.. well, one had their second operation which fixed everything for her and the other two are a little hysterical about what happened and aren’t a good source for facts.
Well, the second surgery is almost always needed for cosmetic reasons. So I don’t worry much about little problems which can be fixed during it.
Still, it’s hard to do the right thing in the right moment, especially when it affects the rest of your life.
Trans* issues in a relationship..
Dunno why, but this chat keeps me happy since yesterday.. maybe I'm just silly but I love it when he's honest.
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Me: happy that my hair gets killed? o.O
Boyfriend: well, beardhair?
Me: yes?
Boyfriend: no more scratching? ;p
Me: yes?
Me: so happy or not? or do you just don't mind again? o.O
Boyfriend: hmm
Boyfriend: kinda happy?
Me: kinda? o.O
Boyfriend: shouldnt i be? ;p
Me: i don't know?
Me: you never give me answers right away.. only when i ask for hours.. you usually only say 'i wouldn't mind' o.O
Boyfriend: okay then
Boyfriend: yes im happy ;p
Boyfriend: happy now? ;p
Me: so i'm not cute with beard and scratching is annoying? o.O
Boyfriend: you're less cute with beard and scratching is annoying ;p
Me: so you do mind if i look trans or like a girl? <.<°
Boyfriend: that's kinda mean.... sort of... now i dont know whether any answer i give you wont make you annoyed 0-o
Me: hm? o.O
Boyfriend: if i say i do mind you'd be annoyed at me minding it, and if i said i dont mind you'll be annoyed at me not helping you on how to feel 0-o
Me: hmm.. not true o.O
Me: just say what you think o.O
Boyfriend: well... i would like it if you looked 100% like a girl yes.
Boyfriend: the beard is kinda weird.
Me: hmm.. you think i'll be able to do that?
Me: i mean.. to look 100% like a girl?
Boyfriend: yes 0-o
Me: really? o.O
Boyfriend: yes
Me: so.. what else do i have to change beside beard? o.O
Boyfriend: maybe adams apple?
Boyfriend: and maybe nose..... though you got kinda a witch nose, so that works out <3
Me: you said you don't mind it <.<°
Boyfriend: no i dont ;p
Boyfriend: but you said what you have to change for 100% girl?
Boyfriend: now i am confused 0-o
Me: but you also said you would like it if i look 100% like a girl o.O
Boyfriend: well, yes
Boyfriend: that doesnt mean i wouldnt like it if you didnt do those things 0-o
Me: o.O
Me: you just don't know what you like? o.O
Boyfriend: no, i still like you if you dont do all that stuff 0-o
Me: just.. like? o.O
Boyfriend: >_>
Boyfriend: i love you sillyhead ;p
Boyfriend: i just dont want to seem insensitive when saying all that stuff ;p
Boyfriend: i dont want you to think you're ugly or that you HAVE to change all that stuff
Boyfriend: becuase youre not and you dont have to 0-o
Boyfriend: i'd like it, yes, i admit that ;p
Boyfriend: but you dont have to ;p
